Monday, August 18, 2008
today is my bdae =) nothing much ... i nv celebrate my bdae bcoz i dun feel lk celebrating it ... i just wished to be HAPPY ... i'm trying my best to be happy everyday ^^
alot of things happened... everything just changed
on 060708
tat day 1 of my best fren ' melvin ' he came back frm spore ... we act plan to meet up ... melvin act wanna gib boon a surprise ... on the same day in the morning , we act went to jb to test drive a 2nd hand SMARt for2 ... i almost forgotten tat i oredi promise to go yumcha vf melvin tat day till he called me n ask where i am coz he oredi reached sg wang ... i told him tat we r on d way back to kl jor asked him to wait for me at sg wang ... i told boon tat melvin act wanna gib him surprise so i nv tell him earlier ... he was lk not very happy n said tat he oredi promised his family to go back to hv dinner vf dem so knt join us yumcha ... i still remembered he did sae " y u nv tell me earlier ? i oredi told my parents tat i will go back to hv dinner vf dem ... " turn out like my fault i nv told him tat melvin is cumin back ... who noes tat he will go back to hv dinner vf his family ? he nv told me tat too ... anyway, is okay .. since he oredi insist wanna go home, i nv sae anything ... he fetch me back to sg wang ... i still remembered it was ard 4.30pm ... he left me at the main entrance n he left ... after i reached my shop i called melvin ... we went to ' yau yat chuen ' yc till ard 6plus den i went back to my shop ...
ard 8pm i received a call frm my ex- mother ... she asked me whether his son is vf me or not ... i was like ? ? WAD ? ? ? vf me ? he left ard 4plus by right he oredi reach home ... his mom sae he nv pick up her call frm 6pm ... dey tried to called him few times edy ... i told auntie, i will try to call him n i will reach her back once i noe where is him ... we r so worried tat something might happen to him coz is oredi more den 3hrs he still havent reach home ... my heart was beating fast each time i called him ... i tried to sms him but he nv reply ... call n call n call but still no one answer the call ... i kip calling him till ard 8.30pm he finally answer the call ...
1st thing he said is
" walao ehh ... wad happen to u guyz ? "
i was like ? ? my 1st question is
" where r u now ? " he sae he in setapak ... he sounds so guilty ... i can feel it ...i asked again
" wad r u doin dere ? "
" do u noe everyone is looking for u ? "
"do u noe tat im so worried bout u ? "
" y u nv answer my call ? y ? sms oso nv reply ? "
" wad r u doin dere ? "
mayb im a bit too nervous so i kip asking tis n tat ... tis is wad he replied :
" HELLO ! MY HP LEFT INSIDE MY CAR HOW U WAN ME TO REPLY U ?!! "
The tone of the phrase was still very clear in my mind till now ... i was so disappointed tat time ... everything so blank ... i was like ? ? u lied to me n yet u still raised up ur voice ?? i got nothing to sae anymore ... i just told him tat not to call me tonite coz i dowan to listen to anything ... i hang up the call n i called his mother told her tat he is ok n he is on his way back frm stpk ... i felt so hurt rili very hurt ... is out of my limit ... is not the 1st time he raised up his voice but for the passed few times i can tried to forgive him but not tis time ... my tears kip rolling down after i hang up the call ... i kip asking myself wad did i do ? y he raised up his voice ? wads the point i worried bout something will happen to him whereby he happily enjoying his own sweet time vf someone else ... he tried to called me few times but i nv answer the call .. he kip sms me n said tat he was so sorry tt he lied to me ... he told me tat he was vf his ex-colleague ... is a guy ... he just dun understd ... wad i care is not who he with ... is y must u lied to me ?
everything just too late ... u break the TRUST of our relationship ... i trusted u but u lied to me ... i kip asking myself y he wanna lied to me ... i cant find any reason for him ... it just hurt me everytime i think of tis ... when i listen to the song " APOLOGIZE " i feel lk crying T.T
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