Tuesday, April 17, 2007
im so depressed... pissed off my damn suck life... tis yr im 22 le... so wad i am now ? im still nothing ! i dun blamed anyone but myself... im a failure ! im just nothing ! depressed ! damn it !!! argghh !!! T_T sobx...
wad i have ?
family ?
i dun rili have a happy family lk anyone else... but i dun blamed anyone bcoz i do have a GREAT daddy who alwix by my side =') but now we r far apart... i dun wan him to worry bout me, so whenever he called up i will tried to be very very happieee... no matter how sad how depressed how i wish to say i wanna go home bcoz i miss u alots " still i will hide it all behind somewhere else " =) if he noe, for sure he will ask me go back... tis ish not i wan... i dowan to go home like tis... i dowan to end up nothing after a yr i've been here... 1 day, when dere ish rili nothing else can make me stay here, i will go back...
" daddy... i rili miss u alots... rili... alots... " ='(
job ?
i gt a diploma bt ish lk USELESS paper... frm the 1st step i was wrong... choose the wrong course, studied wrong thing, dun hv any interest right now... but ish fine, at least i gt a great job vf nice manager n colleagues... eventhough dun hv increment, ish fine but y ?!? y MUST U take away our product incentive !! w/o tt incentive ish lk totally NO COMMISION, taking back our BASIC PAY ! im working retail hr (11hr) but my pay ish lk same vf those ppl working office hr n oni 5 working days... tell me if tis ish FAIR enuff ? i tried hard to learned... learned frm james n jeff... products , refraction but i just ..... i dunno wad's in my brain ! i noe im not tt SMART but y ? even a simple things, i just cant memorize... my memory ish getting worst... today, my brain ish lk BLANK once i went in the refraction room... samo the person i was gg to do the eye test ish my fren... my brain ish USELESS ='( y huh ? y i gt such brain ? haha =x
relationship ?
i alwix thk single jiu single lor... no nid to explain to anyone where i go wad im doin... can do wateva i wan... gd oso ma... but act single life ish not tt happiee lk wad i thk... haha... mayb i just wish to be pamper, sayang by someone else... sometimes when im sad... i rili wish someone by my side... just a lil hug... let me cry on his chest... let him sayang me =') so xin fu o ~
haiz... right now ish lk NOTHING goes right... ='( sobx!
although today not happy but still got tomolo =) after spit out everythings felt much more better lerx... hehe =P things is not under my control but... i can control myself... haha... i wan to be happiee everyday ~ so biby must happiee o ^^ alwix think the brighter side ! jia you jia you !!! biby jia you !!!! hehe =P i noe sometimes things just dun go the way i wan... but im learning to accept it... still learning =)
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